God papa n My path

darice n keeliang invited me over to the service at city harvest church. they held the service at the expo hall 8 for the first time and it was rather a grand opening :)

as usual, the place was filled with super-duper many people, and they were mostly all enthusiastic and hyper. chc people are a bunch of happy people i think. strong believers with extreme faith, that's something i admire- as a christian myself, i hope to be like them soon. i haven't really been in touch with this kind of high spirit,so at first it was a lil awkward for me to blend in to such an atmosphere. keeliang introduced me to the cell group members and i slowly broke the ice within me. praise and worship started and i loved it. i was slowing getting used to it. there were a few familar songs and i sang till my throat got soar and painful ahhh. kind of reminded me of those days in plmgss, those beautiful days when i was so involved in christian ministry and when i was so sure that i was indeed God's beloved daughter. am i still his beloved daughter? :)

today's service was great.
excellent lesson, it has taught me. it moved me so much. i never felt like this for such a long time, i felt as tho God was knocking on the door of my heart and i felt so happy after the speech- it was like 'wowwweeee!! i feel so damn good la!!' haha. probably it's because i'm under sm tremendous amount of pressure and stress, and i'm worried about my future and all.what the pastor said was all so pleasing to the ears and comforting.

the sermon was about fear and uncertainty.
faith will pull us through, and those who fear will not go far. fear robs us from our talent, our potential and our hope, and we shouldn't live in fear. when people sin, the first emotion we encounter would be fear, and we would be afraid of what we have done. fear will take away faith and fear will make us susceptible to satan and the devils around. fear will make us so vulnerable. fear will make us think of failures and fear will make us fail. in my recent post, i said i don't want to get married? actually its because i'm pretty scared of getting married, afraid that my husband would be unfaithful and leave my children and me because of some other person. what if that happens? i would probably just die if that really happens. diaos. hah this is like the worst fear i have in life- but like what the pastor said, we shouldn't fear of what's in front of us, and the failures we would possible face.

yep,as long as we have faith in ourselves and believe that God will be there to walk with us, be confident and as long as we hold our heads up high, things will be just fine. WE CAN MAKE IT, he said. yes, we can. he's right. we all can.:) that was something that i have been wanting to hear for a very long time- some motivation that tells me n wakes me up from the fearsome dream of the untold future, enlightening me that God has planned everything before us and He will guide us to the path we have to take. He will be there and i am so glad that He definitely will be there. leaving my beloved family and friends is one of the most burdening thing in my life right now. never left my family and friends before and i'm so afraid to live all by myself back there in korea. yea sure, i'll make new friends and all and i'll be fine, but the emptiness i would feel-that, i cannot deny, nobody can. i needed the mental strength and i'm glad that God gave it to me tonight. thank you :) yep, i won't be alone! yea! I CAN MAKE IT, I WILL BE FINE! lol

friends out there, do continue to pray for me please?
God bless you all n me richleeee. yayy! :))))))

-happy birthday to you-